Live Music & Poetry Circuit

Turning point..

I just realized... this is it... this is the point in my life where I gamble the most. I suspect there are more gambling to be had in the future and I certainly have risked so much in the past. But, something about this moment now that makes me carefully re-calculate my risks. I suppose it could be fear. Fear of the unknown. But I think it's more so because I am reaching a point of no return. Here's what I mean...

For so long now I had always dove in to any opportunity related to my music career without hesitating one bit. I never once asked myself, "What if it doesn't happen..etc." I'm sooo fierce I never flinch. My confidence in my art has a lot to do with that, really. In addition, I think it was because no matter how high the mountain was, there never was a risk of it crumbling down to affect more than just me. Nowadays, I look at my family and how my pursuit of my career has, still is, affecting them. The next phase in my career has come upon me. Without the aid of a major label, nor a more distinguished independent label, I am left to fuel all my resources and knowledge into making it the commercial hit I know it is deserving of. So what I am to embark upon is definitely my most ambitious project yet and so I feel a sense of fear that this time, it may just affect my family. Isn't fear such a downer?

But don't weep for me =)... I got my head screwed on straight and my eyes are focused dead center on the target. I have faith that God doesn't grant talents that cannot be acclaimed. I have faith that God rewards the steadfast and strong, those that overcome the challenges bestowed on them. I have faith that my time is soon and that it is something that I created, that no one else granted but God.

Enough of the sentimental poo...hahaha...

I was making friends here with Drea. I am lovin this girl, she's so talented. I hope to write a song and perform it with her some time.

Music.. music.. aaahhh I so have to write a new song sooon! I have all these ideas and I can't even put them down because of all my focus on the tour. For tomorrow, I promise to do my FLUIDITY BAR and to video tape somethin related to music. Keep watch.

Renee